Instant Darkness

there are times when the past comes back with its tendrils of vicious revulsion stretched out ready to sap you of your strength without warning.

each week is like hell – whenever i wander into these creatures’ mystic realms, their presence keeps me rooted to the ground, as if my legs were turned to stone. these beings are everywhere and at times i am forced to find another way to get to my destination. i’m trying to make do of what i have but somehow my essence is not enough to make me safe within the walls where i know i should be safe, since in a way i am part of it. somehow i would like to declare my place in this dominion but i can’t since the creatures have a great influence over the inhabitants.

why is this phenomenon harnessed all throughout the land? i have traveled far and wide, yet i see the same thing everywhere. it’s like a plague, but only the other kind – dangerous only to those who fight against it. if i could have it, i would be immune. but is the prize worth the pain? some say yes, but i could see a handful regret venturing into its depths. this curse has many names. maybe you don’t recognize it, but if you do, it’s because you have accepted it as part of a reality planted since the dawn of the age.

me? i am aware of it. five times i even tried to swallow it and let it consume me from the inside. i know fighting it is not an option. i sometimes feel that if i did took a swig out of the flask, would i have changed? the answer to that is beyond reach, at least for now. i don’t know for certain what lies ahead of this path leading deep into the woods of these plagued creatures. at this time, i have decided to stray off the depths, avert my eyes from the sparkling stream of clear water winking innocently right back at me. the haunting may not cease. shudders would keep on seeping in my veins egged on by the wisps of agony secreted by the beings of the deep. but knowing that within me i have my own powers to redeem myself would be enough to keep these tendrils of vicious revulsion at bay.